I don't have many words. I barely have any.
As these days loomed, I somehow imagined that there would be a natural separateness to them, a setting apart. Cocooning, maybe. But they are just days like any other, with potential for warmth and closeness. But also for distance and hurt. And, just like two years ago, the world,-- with a few marked exceptions, and how grateful am I for those exceptions-- doesn't stop for us and our pain.
The days are a little too ordinary, a little too crowded for me. Though I imagine I might find that to be the case no matter what was happening around me. But there've been moments.
The sky over the cemetery yesterday.
Our new* onyx candlesticks for the kid Shabbat candles. I feel funny saying "a present" or "a gift," even if I say "to us" or "to myself." Maybe just "something to mark the occasion."
*The very first time we lit a candle for each of our children in addition to the regular Shabbat candles, we burned down the one wooden candlestick we used because we didn't have three matching ones of any kind. After that we lit tealights for a while, in little IKEA colored tealight holders. And so Monkey wanted us to keep doing that-- to have the kid candles be tealights, and shorter than the main candles.
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No words...only love and warmth and light. Thinking of you and the rest of the Won't Fear Love family.
(o)
Thinking of you on this day.
Thinking of A, and all of you.
The candles are beautiful Julia. As was the sky. Warm thoughts are with you on this day.
xxoo
The sky looks beautiful in that picture. Thinking of you and A, and the rest of your family as well.
Thinking of you all today. They are beautiful candles.
Thinking of you all.
"The days are a little too ordinary, a little too crowded for me."
It is bittersweet, isn't it? Much love to you and yours.
Lots of love being sent your way.
The new candlesticks are beautiful, as are all 3 of your children.
Sending you strength today.
Thinking of A mightily. And you and your family, too. XO.
*hugs* Holding all of you close to my heart today
Holding you & A close in my heart today.
Peace... much like the majesty of the sky and the tranquility of the candle flames. Both are serene but also in movement.
And hugs. Lots.
this is a beautiful post. you have such amazing strength. i am thinking of you and your sweet son today.
Thinking of you and all three of your lovely children.
lots of hugs to you today and always
Thinking of A and your family. What a sky.... what a sky.
xo
lots of love to you julia xo
Thinking of you and A and Monkey today. Funny how the other kids react and it becomes so different, seeing it through their eyes.
Thinking of you, A, and everyone in your family today, Julia.
(thinking of you today)
Thinking of you all x x x
I was thinking of you today, and the words from somewhere over the rainbow kept running through my head.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Thinking and praying for you all.
Been thinking about you and yours since Friday night. And somehow failed to get in touch :( Hugs.
Did I accidentally delete my comment?
The photo of the candlesticks is amazing. And the sky is far from ordinary. Thinking of you.
it never becomes ok, does it.
xxoo
The candles are beautiful.
Thinking of you, of A, of all your family.
A day late but none the less, thinking of you all.
Beautiful pictures.
I have been traveling, but i have been thinking of you and A during these days. (((((hugs))))))
Thinking of you all today. Beautiful pictures.
thinking of you and A, and the rest of your family, as you remember your sweet boy.
I am late, Julia, but the sentiments none the weaker. Only stronger.
((hugs)) and remembering with you. xoxo
Beautiful photos. Thinking of you & yours, Julia.
What a beautiful post. And I'm so sorry. ((Hugs)) sweetie.
Thinking of you and wishing you peace.
I have no good words either. Just remembering with you.
Thinking of you ... of all of you.
Thinking of you and of A, Julia. And of your whole precious family. Love to you.
Thinking with you and remembering.
you are all in my thoughts. xoxo
I haven't checked here recently and I'm so sorry to be late. Thinking of you and sweet precious A.
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