Wednesday, August 20, 2008

The view from here

And there was evening...

 

(and late evening...)

 

and there was morning...

 

The sixth* day. And this really is the view from our NICU window.
The view on the inside isn't bad either, most days.

 

Yes, he is still a bit yellowish, and he is in for a bili draw in the morning, along with the CBC. The results of these should tell us when we might be able to spring him from his very plush accommodations and back to our humble abode.


I have thought, when I had the time and the inclination to think about such things, which is to say fleetingly, that I seem to be doing a little too well. My physical recovery has been the easiest of the three labors. And if emotionally I have been walking in circles on top of a rather large powder keg, I have also been able to mostly ignore the stuff under my feet. So you know I was due for a meltdown.

It came last night, prompted by a crazy-making encounter with a nurse who is likely very good, but was just all wrong for me. I came apart in a quiet way where I just couldn't stop the tears for a few hours while madly typing in chat windows. My heartfelt thanks to two people who helped talk me down. You know who you are.

Things were much calmer and much better today, aided as they were by our very own hit parade of most excellent nurses (night, day, and now night shift again). I am OK, though more keenly aware that there are things to deal with, to exhale, to confront. Just not now. Later.


*I cheated-- the pictures are from different days. Sue me.

32 comments:

luna said...

beautiful views, esp. the one of you both. but I;m sure you'll be happier when you're all home together.

Amelie said...

Beautiful views, like luna said. I hope the labs come back fine and you can all go home soon.

Caro said...

Yup, great views. Hope you can both go home soon.

Aurelia said...

Oh he looks so amazingly lovely!

And I am sure you will be going home sooner than you think, baby in tow.

charmedgirl said...

i used to joke about our triplet NICU stay (20 days) and say it was our million dollar manhattan vacation. the views! we could see the entire island.

oh, julia. i am still dealing with that stay...and i expected it my whole pregnancy. i'm sorry.

apart from all that, he is beautiful and the tiny slice of you is too!

CLC said...

Oh, he's gorgeous!
I hope you both go home soon. As lovely as those views are, the view from your own house is best.

k@lakly said...

He wears his jaundice well, he is perfect and adorable and looks absoluetly at peace laying there with mommy. Hope you are enoying the view from home in no time and that the issues resolve leaving you wih nothing to deal with but enjoying this little miracle of yours.
XXOO

slouching mom said...

gorgeous, all -- him, you, sky.

xoxo

yummysushipajamas said...

Beautiful views, but those perfect tiny fingers are what did it for me. I'm glad you let yourself break down a bit. It was high time for it.

Tash said...

I'm glad you cleared up that day thing -- that can bring a blog down, you know. /wink

It's all beautiful. I'm in awe of those fingers. And hoping a homecoming is on your horizon.

Catherine said...

There is always at least one nurse to make you crazy. I think it's a rule. And with all that you have lurking around you waiting to be dealt with, it's amazing there has been only one.

And really, under the best circumstances, the waiting to go home is awful. I hope the tests show progress and you're all on your way very soon. {{{hugs}}}

(Gorgeous pictures)

Magpie said...

Sweet baby. I hope you get home soon.

Sue the nurses, instead.

christina(apronstrings) said...

love the pics. i hope you all can head home soon.
xoxo

christina(apronstrings) said...

i wish i lived close. i think he needs an aunt apronstrings who very much wants to kiss his itty bitty hand.

Ya Chun said...

aaaawwww. so precious.

yay, yay, yay!

Bon said...

tears at those little hands. i am sorry for last evening...people can wound in the oddest ways. and this is such a strange, wondrous, raw time, Julia...go gentle.

home soon.

Anonymous said...

Is it a picture of the Charles? Or do all major cities look alike? Our view from a maternity window of Beth Israel in Boston was similarly picturesque, but slightly different. (During a snow storm also)!

Anyway, my warmest, warmest congrats!!!

Birdies Mama said...

I agree with everyone....the view you have been able to gaze upon is so beautiful and peaceful. The photo and you and your sweet babe, there are no words, what a tender moment. Julia he looks so much more than gorgeous, even with that little bit of yellow, he is a sight to behold. Here's to hoping that very soon you can all be together at home, in your comfy nest, to coo and cuddle and continue to fall endlessly in love.

missing_one said...

ah Julia, words cannot begin to express my happiness for you. beautiful

red pen mama said...

Just wanted to say congratulations to you on the delivery of your son. Looking forward to hearing more stories. Best wishes and prayers are with you,
rpm

Julie said...

Ohhhhh that little starfish hand!

There is simply nothing sweeter than that amazing five-fingered baby grope.

Lynnette said...

What a sweetie...thanks for sharing.

Wabi said...

So, so cute!

Rooting for your sweet boy to get sprung from the joint soon.

Dayna said...

Hang in there. Hope you're on your way home soon.

Miryam (mama o' the matrices) said...

Hope the bili cooperates. That's a sweet yellow fellow you've got there!

Ashleigh said...

I get it. I really do. We are home now and I hope you are not far behind.

Thinking of you all the time....

c. said...

Beautiful pictures, Julia. Just beautiful. Wishing you strength and, certainly, out of that hospital as soon as is possible. Thinking of you and your little man.

Rosepetal said...

I hope you're going home very soon Little Beautiful One.

zarqa said...

Oh, I'm so happy for you! He's beautiful.

Mandy said...

I'm learning that meltdowns seem to come when we need them, whether we want them or not. I'm sorry you're not yet home, that you're still circling the powder keg, that the nurse lit a match too close to all of it.

Please know you have the love, thoughts and prayers of many coming your way and we will cheer when you and that sweet boy go home.

Kiss those fingers for us.

Lollipop Goldstein said...

I love the beginning of this post.

Which is not to say that I don't love the picture, because it is equally sweet and beautiful. But there was something about the opening lines.

BasilBean said...

Julia,
I want you to know that I am thinking about you and hoping you will have your little guy at home very soon.

Thank you for sharing the beautiful picture of the two of you.