Friday, January 18, 2008

NBHHY big time

Houston, we have a heartbeat. 136 by one measurement, 128 by another. Seen by abdominal ultrasound. Measuring exactly where I know myself to be-- 6w5d. I am pretty astounded, as I was really bracing for bad news. (Brown spotting on Wednesday night did not help with that. Sorry I didn't tell you, but I wasn't sure whether JD could read the blog from Europe, and didn't want him to worry. But my sister was called and alerted to sleep with her cell phone next to her, in case I needed her to come stay with Monkey while I hauled my ass to the hospital-- being alone with Monkey really re-focused what I was worried about, for better or for worse. For better, I think, as it allowed me to concentrate on making it to the morning rather than on whether the shit was hitting the fan, you know?)

My friend Aite went with me, for in case news was bad and for general moral support. Good thing, too, since although I brought a book, I am not sure I could've read-- when I got to the floor, and then to the reception area, I started to shake a little. Not sure whether Aite noticed, but we talked all through the wait, and it really helped. In fact, I think, other patients in the waiting area might have mistaken us for carefree clueless people. Let me assure you, though, at least on my part it was all nervous energy.

I have a bit of a strange pain on my right side still, where the cyst used to live, and I was worried. But both the technician and Dr. Best looked very carefully at both the ovaries and the tubes, and didn't see anything interesting. Speaking of Dr. Best. He came in, asked me how I was (shell-shocked), and then said "I guess you showed them upstairs." Did I mention I love my OB? Nurse Kind also came in-- she works triage on Fridays, and said she was watching for me to be called in, and then came to see what was up. Did I mention I lucked out to have been assigned to them (randomly) when I was pregnant with A?

21 comments:

slouching mom said...

ACK!

CONGRATULATIONS!

That's the best news I've heard in some time.

xxoo

BasilBean said...

It was so good to read that.

christina(apronstrings) said...

that's wonderful. so, so good to hear.
i am so lucky not to have had any spotting. i know it';s noraml. i know, without cramping, it means nada 99% of the time...but is terrifying.
glad you got even more reassuance that all is well.
xoxo

Bon said...

i checked in about four times before i went to bed last night, hoping you'd post!

now i can relax and smile over my morning coffee. i am soo happy for you, Julia. so relieved. so happy to see things go right, for a change. :)

when does JD make it back?

niobe said...

What great news!

And I'm so impressed that you're strong (I know, horrible, horrible word) enough that you can actually bring another person with you to your appointment. I'm such a weakling that the only way I can face scary things is all by myself.

Tash said...

Yay!!!! (goofily clapping hands!) You're smart to bring someone else -- like Niobe said, I would played the martyr and gone in by myself. let's continue to SHOW THEM, shall we? Nice if this could be the righteously indignant pregnancy to the RE, entire office, and universe!

My Reality said...

What wonderful, wonderful news. I am so happy that NBHHY and I hope it never does.

Beruriah said...

Yay.

I stopped even bothering to bring reading material after the first or second appointment.

Damn the brown spotting. I hate it.

kate said...

Wonderful! CONGRATULATIONS!!!

kalakly said...

Hi there,
I just read your post over at niobes place and wanted to drop you a quick note. But first, after reading your latest blog, (I don't read your blog on a regular basis but now I probably will) wanted to add my good wishes and happiness at your wonderful news. Brown spotting is my constant companion in pregnancy so I know how scary it is. I can tell you I have a beautiful 6 year old daughter who was a result of a brown spotting preggo, so keep the faith!
The reason I wanted to write was because you had said you might be rethinking the way you write based on some of the comments re: NBHHY. Please don't. I think the best thing about blogging is that YOU can write exactly what YOU want, how YOU want, without censor. If you start writing with the notion of not offending others who read, YOU will get lost in the process.
I can't speak for anyone but me but my own personal "dislike" of the NBHHY phrase is just that. Mine. Doesn't mean I get annoyed at anyone else for using it. It just isn't a phrase that works for me. I do get that for most who use it, it is merely a way of saying, "for now, things are ok, or maybe even good". Nothing wrong with that.
To me, the best part of reading all of these amazing blogs here in deadbaby land is that they are each unique, everyone approaches things so differently, sometimes positive, sometimes negative, they all make a difference for me. Whether I agree or disagree with a perspective, I am so much better having been exposed to all of them, having to consider them and evaluate my own feelings with a much wider appreciation for different points of view.
So anyway, I was so struck by your comment I wanted to add my two cents worth. Feel free to disregard. I think your writing is wonderful just the way it is, I wouldn't change it for anyone but YOU.:)
I'll be thinking postive thoughts for you and your wee one.:)

Dara said...

I am de-lurking to say, I am so happy for you!

charmedgirl said...

....
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....

(i hope that's not insulting. i am here, reading, and feeling good for you, k? just not comfortable with the congrats and stuff.)

Magpie said...

Happy for you - great news, and great doctors. Continued good luck.

Karen said...

Julia - oh, happiness and I'm glad you are taking care of yourself -and I hope you are breathing a little easier for now.

Birdies Mama said...

Julia,

What great news.....you have been blessed. I am so happy for you.

xoxo

meg said...

Wonderful, wonderful news. I'm glad that Aite went with you too.

AmyinMotown said...

Thank GOD. So glad to hear it.

Julia said...

Thank you, thank you, everybody. Yes, I am breathing a bit easier for now. It also helps that JD is here, and I don't have to be on all the time.

Hi, Kalakly, welcome, and thank you so much. I will probably write about this here in the coming days. I am not a pleaser type or anything, I just don't like to annoy people I like. But I am leaning towards keeping it anyway. :)

Dara, yay! Welcome.

Amelie said...

I'm so happy to hear that, Julia.

Coggy said...

That's such good news. I'm so glad that you got to hear such an amazing thing.
Wow, a heartbeat. :o)

wannabe mom said...

i don't have a computer at home, so i'm just reading this now and i am soooo soo relieved. damn that brown spotting.