Thursday, August 2, 2007

Requiem for a cycle

Dr. B, aka the world's best doctor, doesn't want us to try this month. He wants my thyroid under better control before we try again, and he recommended that I see an endocrinologist. So that is that.

I have conflicting feelings about this. On one hand, I understand. And I certainly don't want to make the next pregnancy any riskier than it will already be. On the other, the only reason anyone knows what is up is because I pay attention. If I ignored the subtle signs last week we would still all be under the illusion of my thyroid leveling off last month and it being safe to try. And if we did get pregnant, Dr. B and company would then set to work managing my condition. And statistically, it would likely work out. But statistics are no comfort to me now. And I did pay attention, and we do know what is going on.

I feel like stomping my feet and banging my fists, and chugging a Cosmopolitan. Of course, given how sick I am, I would probably end up coughing up a lung way before I ever got to the cocktail. Damn!

10 comments:

Rosepetal said...

Thyroid sucks. I hope they manage to get it under control. I have hypothyroidism diagnosed when I got pg with A (although not linked to his problems). Mine seems to be under control at the moment.

BasilBean said...

I'm sorry this is happening. I understand your conflicting feelings but I do think that it is best that you were paying attention to your body's signals. The next pregnancy will be enough of a worry without added issues (if they can be avoided).

niobe said...

Sorry about this bad news. It must be incredibly frustrating. And even worse than it would be otherwise, because you're sick. Feel better.

Beth: said...

I'm sorry. How incredibly frustrating.

Beruriah said...

Aargh. I'm sorry. I hope you're resting and will feel better soon. I have no advice, Basilbean's comment makes sense, but so does what you say. And statistics suck.

meg said...

I hope your cold is better soon!

I feel your frustration, Julia, I really do. I had some eye infection that would not clear up last year, and the antibiotics were not safe to take, while trying. That was a relatively minor (and a one off problem) and I remember being so annoyed that we couldn't just get on with it. Sometimes just standing still, is the worst thing of all. I hope it all gets sorted out really soon!

Aurelia said...

Oh crap Julia, I know we chatted last night, but I just wanted to come back to say that I think the heart thing will come back under control very soon. I have a feeling that both the endocrinologist and the cardiologist will be helpful.

Soooo, why do you have to stop trying for your sister's wedding? You are close enough that it won't show if you do get pregnant? And even then, who cares? Am I missing something?

Adelynne said...

Aurelia - she doesn't want to end up in labor on my wedding day. It's an admirable sentiment. :)

Julia said...

Or worse-- on bed rest at the hospital unable to attend.

slouching mom said...

Oh, damn. I'm sorry, Julia.